wow...

...so the last few days have been...crazy.

I don't really know how to describe them, or even really tell you what I've done, because it's all been such a blur with all of my emotions flung in every direction other than a normal straight and narrow path. I mean, really, I'm emotional as it is, but damn...

...James Douglas Arthur. Was an amazing artist, not anywhere near his prime, and a wonderful person. He didn't deserve to be murdered...especially not at 23...
http://www.kcra.com/news/19745940/detail.html
...I haven't spoken to him in years, but that didn't change the fact that I considered him a friend, and we were pretty good friends at one point in our lives. Now, I've dealt with death multiple times in my life. But, I've never had to deal with someone being murdered. For some reason, its messing with my head, making me jumpy, emotional, a mess. And if I've taken it out on you the last few days, my apologies. I'm either numb, or crazy. And neither has suited me well. My heart goes out to that family who just a few short years ago had to deal with a death, and now this. In their own family home. Words cannot even begin to express my...I don't even know, now.

You never know what life is going to throw at you. And this curve ball, and my reaction to it, I would have NEVER guessed in a million years.

R.I.P. Jim. You will be missed by many.