We hold these truths to be self-evident....

So, here's a little bit of truth: last night turned out to be awful.

I felt good after the gym and my shower. Everything was truckin along. Then, I got into bed, started watching a movie. Then, it hit me. The most awful, overwhelming feeling of loneliness. Which, of course turned into anxiousness. Which, just made me more upset. And, I let the feeling wash over me, and it took a hold and would not let go.

So what do I do? Why, of course I make matters worse for myself. I text the only two people I know for a guarantee are awake. Nathan.....and Kelsi. Bad idea. BAD BAD BAD idea. Why did I do this? Yeah, good question. But, I was feeling it, guys, literally feeling a panic attack coming on, I really REALLY needed someone. anyone. Of course, I knew Kelsi was a bad idea, the second I hit send. Then, I was embarrassed, who wants her to see me all freaked out anyway? No. She's supposed to think I'm happy ALL the time and FINE FINE FINE. Which, under normal circumstances, I really am. I just don't know. Sometimes, the night is a cruel cruel place that plays tricks on me, and hits me with the lonely stick. Its hard going to bed alone, I guess. It's even harder for me to fall asleep alone.

So, oh hey there, lonely stick, thanks for beating the crap out of me last night. It was totally AMAZING, come back and visit NEVER again, please? Thanks.