Tj Lev said...
You should update your blog with some happy thoughts! Since you are happier these days!! Love you honey!
December 9, 2009 2:58 PM
I decided to update a little here.
I am officially single. Beyond belief. There are still many things I find wrong with this situation, especially after giving over my self for an entire year, just to have it ripped away from me in four hours. But...but but but...I'm coping. I'm dealing. I'm trudging forward. And eventually it won't pang my heart, and it'll just be a memory....this one tucked behind millions of happy ones.
Many people have helped this journey move so smoothly, as of now. Including those in the tiniest of small sentences telling me if I need to vent they're available, or that I'll be okay. I will be. Eventually. Right now, I'm just working on it, and taking it on a day-by-day basis. Some days hurt...like a red-hot poker stabbing my heart. Sometimes, I only have a couple hours of that, or even just an hour...and even a few minutes that come fleeting by, just to have me crush it out of my mind. Some days are calm. Some days are irrational. And some days, some days are even happy, relieved, and ready to mingle. ;) Ok, so those days are less than the others...but eventually they'll outweigh the others.
Another semester is survived. Only 3 more to go...does that sound as far away to everyone else as it does to me? *sigh* I just have to keep telling myself: I have a hard major, classes and time keep getting cut, if I stay that long I'll get the major I want WITH the concentration I want. It's OK. In happier news: i get to petition to graduate next semester. *happy sigh*
Oh. and I'm 23 now....and unsure of how to feel about that. Some *ahem* KIND *ahem* person reminded me that means I'm IN my twenties now. I can't pretend anymore. I AM A twenty something. Thank you, kind person, I really appreciate that slap in the face...
Oh. And anyone who wants to continue to tell me how amazing I look with these teeth, please. feel free. <3
world, watch out for optimistic me. If she keeps popping up more and more, you're in trouble.
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you look faaaabulous. and you sound so good (the deep down kind) even if kinda torn up on the top part. :) and <3
ReplyDeletewas that me who said you were in your twenties??
ReplyDeleteno it was Susie Crow, actually. haha. :)
ReplyDeleteAnd thank you both, I adore you two.