life is just so....

upsetting:
-Kelsi is gone. GONE GONE. She's moved in to the dorms at The University of Oklahoma. She's already in rehearsals, ASMing "Is He Dead?" She's already started classes. And she's settling in...leaving me in the dust. At least, sometimes, that's how I feel. The university is so much more amazing than anything I could have EVER imagined of getting into or attending. Sometimes I feel worthless against her greatness. Ay ay ay.

infuriating:
-Speaking of school, "financial aid"...oh wait. I can't call it that when I still HAVE NONE. They're screwing me around. School starts MONDAY. And, I have nothing. No awards of "financial aid" or anything. AND They keep telling me "you'll get it in 4-6 weeks"...ok. I called after 4 "you'll get it in 6-8 weeks"...oh, maybe I misunderstood before...called again..."from the time you turned in your paper work its 8-10 weeks and it hasn't been 8 yet" WAIT WAIT WAIT. WHAT!? *sigh* This isn't helping my: I've been in school too long already and I'm FAILING at life by not being finished. And I've failing at life because I'm going to a school that just isn't...magnificent...it just IS. *sigh*

amazing:
-I had auditions at school. Bat Boy the musical and Twelfth Night. What they taught me: one. Some of those people in the department...just aren't worth my time. News flash: you aren't THAT great. So, calm yourself. And two: I can do this. I got called back for BOTH shows. Considering I've never touched Shakespeare in my life, I was content. :) She was IMPRESSED with my handle of it, EVEN though I was new to Shakespeare. And impressing her, without any prior training, is what mattered to me. :) And, I have a SECOND callback for Bat Boy coming up. So, think happy thoughts...think happy thoughts.

delightful:
-After the first callbacks, I attended Fridays with four wonderfully funny individuals. I had the best night I've had since coming back to California without Kelsi. And I am much appreciative to them...even though they have no idea what an amazing thing they did. In fact, I was so excited and happy I couldn't SLEEP when I got home, and ended up watching part of a movie before finally deciding I should close my eyes and at least TRY to sleep.

quick:
-Where did August go? And all my projects that were supposed to be finished before school starts? OH WELL.

surprising:
-My boss BROUGHT UP giving me a raise. Before I had even been here a year, without me asking about it or ANYTHING. And, she asked for the HIGHEST amount I can get at the moment! My last job never even THOUGHT about giving me a raise.

So. I'm excited for school...but. I miss Kelsi a lot. And wish I could be with her more than ANYTHING. And, I miss my besties: Ashley, JEN, you're wonderful and I miss you muchos.